Baptismal Testimony

Nicole Lee
1995/08/06
translated by Grace Kuo

In the past five years I have seriously considered baptism. Many times I thought I was ready, only to change my mind each time. I had so many questions and so many doubts. I have always been autious of making mistakes --a perfectionist --and I didn't want to make any wrong decisions in regard to my faith. I remember times when I asked my parents about baptism. They always told me that it was a decision I needed to make on my own, based on what I felt was right. They never forced any ideas on me. Instead, they exposed me to Christianity by bringing me to church every Sunday and by encouraging me to pray whenever I felt I needed to. I remember when I was much younger, whenever I saw someone who was physically disabled, my parents would remind me of how fortunate I was. They encouraged me to thank God for all of the blessings that he had given to me: God granted me health and the ability to excel and succeed. One day, as my mother and I were in the car, we passed by a person in a wheelchair. Before my mother could say anything, I exclaimed "Mommy, Mommy," "I know what you are going to say! You're gonna tell me how lucky I am, that God has blessed me and that I should be thankful." In this way, my parents showed me that prayer was not just a way to ask God of the things I wanted, but also a way to thank God for His many gifts and blessings. This is one of the greatest gifts my parents have ever given to me. Because of their encouragement rather than force, I have grown to love Jesus Christ and believe in Him as my personal Savior.

A little over a year ago, I received admission into the Massachusetts Institute of Technology. As I prepared to go to MIT, I was overcome with a mass of emotions. I was filled with excitement, with happiness, with anticipation. But, the one emotion that seemed to exceed all other emotions was fear. I was about to travel to the other side of the United States, to Boston, a city where I knew absolutely no one. I didn't know if I was prepared to be so far from the security and familiarity of home. And, most of all, I didn't know if I was ready for the academics and rigors of MIT. I never outwardly showed this fear; instead, I found solace through prayer.

Being a student at MIT was far from easy. Never in my life have I studied so hard and had so little sleep, only to see meager results in the end. The pressure and pace were extremely intense. Most students find themselves pushed to a point of frustration. It appeared to me that non-Christians were prone to seek comfort in ways that could only be temporary. They found comfort in alcohol or by being sexually promiscuous. On the other hand, I felt that Christians had better ways to deal with stress and anxiety. Through fellowship and prayer, the hearts of Christians were always filled, because God's love lasts forever. Spiritually, I grew in the pressure-filled atmosphere of MIT. More and more I recognized how much of an impact my faith had in my daily life.

I am always amazed at how well I adapted to life in Boston. God blessed me in so many ways --I was able to continue playing the piano at school while managing my courses. And, I found many friends, both within my school and within my church. Although I approached MIT with many fears and doubts about my abilities, I learned that with God's help I could manage the most difficult situations. God's love helps us overcome the greatest obstacles. He is always in my heart, always willing to listen to my prayers. In this past year, I have grown to realize that I will always have many questions about Christianity. These questions, however, are no longer a reason for me to shy away from baptism. Instead, I can utilize these questions to grow spiritually.

There is one particular Bible verse that has influenced me a great deal. I Peter 1: 8 "Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy. "